Every year I do this thing that is super hard. It's hard on me (especially the mommy in me). It's hard for my littles. It's hard on my home and even my dogs.
Every August, sure as ever, I go back to work. That may not seem like a big deal and for those of you mamas that work all year around (god, I have incredible respect for that!) you're probably thinking, what is she whining about?! But let me tell you, 2 and a half months is just long enough for us all to get used to being stay at home kind of people.
Last summer was kind of lame with me being in my first trimester with N. To make up for that, I wanted this summer to include more outings, more play, and generally just more fun stuff. We had a great time riding bikes, berry picking, visiting family and more. Then August comes and it's time to go back. In some ways I look forward to August. I start planning what new things I'll do with my students and which strategies I'll take for a run. But my sons, D especially, ache with loss.
I don't have family nearby, but the last couple of years I've been blessed to have parents who travel across the country to stay with us for the first week while I transition back to school and before D's preschool begins. They are there to show my sad, heartbroken and sometimes tantruming kid that even though his little heart misses mama, they love him so very much. They have dinner ready when we get home from work, and even bathe my kids. I don't know what I would do without them.
But we've been back to school now for about a month and I'm just coming up for air. My house is in shambles - very similar to how it looks in May when school is *this close* to being done - there's laundry everywhere, and I could probably count on one hand how many times I've actually cooked dinner in the last 4 weeks. But that's ok. We are busy living our lives the best we can, and I'm more concerned about the time spent with my kiddos in the evening than the laundry.
I'm also looking forward to our Fall collection launch which will be a bit smaller but with a yarny theme. In the meantime, I'm knitting away. It keeps me sane and gives both you and I something to look forward to.